By Kai Simmonds
#spiritualjourney #spiritualawakening #soulpurposejourney #liveyoursoulpurpose #discoveryourdharma
When I was 25, I went to Bali for the first time…
My first long term relationship had ended and I was sad, heartbroken and confused.
I had attached so much of my identity to that relationship so when it ended I also felt completely lost and felt like I had to go and “find myself” and also to numb myself so I didn’t have to feel the heavy heartbreak.
Not gonna lie, I went to Bali with to party, drink , probably buy some dr*gs, have a random hook-up so that I could forget the pain and just forget about the break up, none of that happenned.
In fact, the only guy I met was Ketut Liyer ( the Ketut from EatPrayLove.)
He was a wise old man who read my palm and told me that I would find love again, that I had so much knowledge in me and I would spend the rest of my life learning and teaching.
The only drink I had was a mushroom shake, which didn’t “numb” me but quite the opposite it awakened me.
I remember I just had the shroom shake and I was swimming in a pool and felt the water, like as if it was flowing through me, I looked up at the sky and they looked so bright, so clear so comforting.
I trully felt alive, which after weeks of heartbreak felt amazing, I went back to the UAE feeling incredible and like myself again.
The Calm before the real storm.
When I got back, I found out I was being fired from my job, I had just arrived to the UAE as a teacher so it wasn’t like I could take a 30 min drive and crash at my parents house.
I was alone, heartbroken, jobless in a foreign country (but I still had 2 months till my current contract ended).
Then it happened, I had a severe panic attack at work. I was standing in front of the class and the negative thoughts started to take over, it swarmed me.
All of a sudden, I felt like I couldn’t breathe, I ran out of the classroom into a colleagues class telling her I cant breathe, and the next thing I knew I woke up in the hospital.
I went through some of the worst weeks of my life…
These horrible weeks, although I was at the lowest point of my life was actually the beginning of my journey of my first step into living my soul purpose.
When I was in Bali, I didn’t meet a guy…
I met someone else, someone better.
I met me, the awakened/ aligned me- my soul purpose.
It took me a few years (cause I was stubborn AF) to fully start to take the steps towards actually living it, but I know now, that this was it.
I didn’t go to Bali to meet a guy, I went there to meet me.
Wishing you lots of Aloha 🌈
Kai
